Reunited and it feels so good!
Today is a monumental day! After 11 months, I had my first Diet Pepsi. Before we got pregnant with Owen, I decided to give up diet caffeinated soda. I figured it couldn’t help things. Lets just say that I was addicted to Diet Pepsi at the time. It was my “coffee” and I would drink it any time of day, multiple times a day. Now I knew that the caffeine levels weren’t as high as coffee, but it still helped me feel better. It was more of a comfort item. A security blanket of sorts. Giving it up wasn’t as hard as I expected. I still occasionally had a diet soda, but I made sure it was decaf. By occasionally, I mean, about once a month or less. It just was nice to drink something other than water as a special treat. It wasn’t until the last month or so that desire for my Diet Pepsi returned strong. I think it was my way of responding to the stress in my life. Now that Owen is here and I’m learning a new way of life and sleep pattern, I finally caved. I’ve been talking about hitting the bottle again with Jeremy for some time and yesterday, I decided to go for it. The decision was made. I would go back to my true love. Now we didn’t have any Diet Pepsi on hand and I didn’t want anyone running out and getting it ASAP. It was just a decision. However, my husband came home from church today with a bottle for me and I didn’t hesitate to open it! I’m unsure at this point if I’ll keep it stocked in the house. I might go back to my past addiction levels if it’s ready on hand, but I think an occasional Diet Pepsi as a treat or at a restaurant will now be acceptable! This might seems like small thing, but it’s another small thing that makes me feel like me – like the Amy Scott I’ve been for years. I also had cold meat this week when I ate some leftover pizza. It was amazing! While being a new mom has it’s ups and downs, being able to eat things that I haven’t eaten in months is definitely an upside!
