We know all that I struggle with being a bit of a pessimist. I call it being “realistic”, but really my mind naturally thinks of all the worst case scenario stuff right off the bat. Seeing the bright side isn’t my first reaction. Usually I look for a bright side, but truthfully, it’s a choice to look.
I was writing this week in my quiet time. It’s not really blog material, but I need to process my world through words so I write for myself. And for Jesus. I write because when I get the words out of my head, I feel heard. It doesn’t seem to matter if there is an audience or not. As I was writing, I surprised myself with this line:
It doesn’t make any sense to focus on the worst when the best is just as possible.
Okay, who is that and what has she done with Amy. I typed it and I literally stopped. It’s so true, but I don’t often think this way. It’s easy to get caught up in worst case scenarios. I’ve spent years thinking of the horrible ways things could go wrong. I’m learning that even if things don’t got as I plan, they usually don’t turn out to be my worst case scenarios. Surprisingly, even in the moments when I have lived the worst case scenario, God is still good and he is still there in the midst of all it. I’m never walking through this life alone and that doesn’t sound too bad if you ask me.
So yes, I have realized that for every doomsday scenario I fabricate in my head, there is just as much of a chance that I will be blown away by the best possible scenario. There is just as much of a chance for God to show up and completely turn even the darkest of moments into places of praise and rejoicing. (I think the Bible says something like that – “Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning.” Psalm 30:5)
Today I am choosing to believe that things might turn out better than expected. Strange, but gives me a good feeling.