Okay, you know the saying “don’t count your chickens before they’ve hatched.” Well, I did it… I started to count the chickens and not all of them hatched like I thought they would. No – not real chickens… my gift chickens! Strange way of putting this, I know! Let me explain!
It happened for the first time with gifts 852 and 853. I was jazzed on Thursday. I thought something really good was coming my way and in my excitement I listed it as a gift. My joy was there and it was a blessing in that moment so I wrote it down. However, these gift hadn’t really appeared yet, I just knew it was coming… Well, it didn’t come. By Friday, the gifts that I had written down were just a disappointment. I took it pretty hard.
What do I do now? Is the total on my gift journal off? Do I scratch them from the list and renumber? I’m so puzzled as to what to do. Is it good enough that it was a gift in the moment even if it never became a reality? I don’t know! I’m at a total loss. It might seem like a small thing to some, but to me it’s big. I’m really wrestling with it. Can I count these as gifts on one day when they are disappointment on the next? I’ve certainly learned my lesson though, don’t write down a gift until it really appears. Is the hope of a gift enough to make a gift? What happens if it doesn’t pan out?
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