As promised, here is my after road trip blog. *Insert sigh here* I’m not even sure where to begin. This last month has been a hard one for me for various reasons. I have found myself spending a lot of a emotional energy. I’m learning that the more emotional energy I spend the less energy I have for other things… this includes my blog.
I started off this writing adventure with great hopes. I had an opportunity for publication (nothing major) and it sent my spirit soaring and dreaming of the heights I could reach as a writer. Every time I was home alone I would work on a piece. For a while it all seemed to flow to easily. I guess things haven’t taken off as quickly as I had hoped and coupling that with a crazy month – I feel like I have hit my first stint of writers block (I find it humorous that I am writing about my writers block).
I’m keeping my eyes open for fresh insight and new things to share with you, but for the time being all I can say is that I am trying. I’m seeking and learning, but the lessons have been hard and they are a little too fresh to put into words. I can see God’s faithfulness through every step of the journey and I trust in His ordering of steps. Sometimes I wish I had more of a say in where these steps are leading me, but I know that no experience is wasted if I look for God in it.
My natural bent is to focus on the negative and to dwell on the things that are “wrong” in my life. My exercise for today is to find the small blessings and to hold on to them as a promise of all the good that God has for me. Today I am thankful for the sunshine, for my Toby dog who is snuggling next to me as I write this, for my friends and family who make me smile and laugh, for the home I write this blog in, for the yummy hot dog my hubby grilled for me at lunch, for birds singing outside. I could make an endless list if I continued to think about it all. I am loved and that is enough!