Amy Scott's Thoughts

Sharing the thoughts that bounce around in my brain!

Figuring It Out As I Go September 17, 2019

Filed under: Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 2:44 pm

Figuring it out as I go would be a good way to describe my September. Each week has presented different factors that haven’t allowed me to settle into a new routine yet. Day by day I’m figuring it out as I go knowing that tomorrow will be completely different. Not a lot of a stability. However unsteady I have felt this month, Jesus has been greater than my emotions, anxiety or stumbles. He has truly been my solid ground.

One big piece of the puzzle fell into place this week. Owen has started riding the bus home from school. There are many reasons why this was a good decision for our family. As long as Owen has a positive experience on the bus then this will become our new normal. I’m looking forward to having this part of my day come together in a consistent way.

Not only am I helping my kids adapt to a new schedule, I am adapting my schedule to work around them. I’m finding my new flow. Mondays will be dedicated to MOPS & MOMSnext. Tuesdays, I will volunteer in Owen’s classroom. The cool thing about Tuesdays this year is that Owen & I both have Tuesday birthdays, so we’ll get to have some extra time together on those special days. On Wednesdays I have a weekly phone date with a friend and then I teach 4th-6th grade girls at church in the evening. I have a great group of new 4th graders. I am excited for the year ahead with them. Thursdays will be coffee connection days or appointment days or errands days. It might also be a home day depending on the busy weekend ahead. I like that Thursday is a flex day. Friday will most likely be errands with Jeremy and Graham. Saturday will be a family day. Sunday is church in the mornings and growth groups in the evening. It’s amazing how each day of the week has filled in with a purpose.  After the whirlwind month of September is over, I plan on using nap time to dive back into working on my book. My goal for the end of the year is to see this project move forward.

Having my kids away from me for part of the day has heightened my sense of intentionality when I am present with them. I’m making meaningful conversation with them – asking about their day, what they are learning, how they are feeling. I try stay close and offer plenty of hugs, kisses and snuggles. Owen just started having homework packets this week and I enjoy sitting beside him as he does his homework. Reading is so important to me so reading the books that the school sends home daily is a joy for me and a great connection point for Owen and I. There have been many sad feelings for me as I miss my children through this transition, but I’m also finding new ways to draw close to them and support them through their new endeavors. It’s a different season of parenting. I’m walking into it with my eyes wide open, not wanting to miss a beat. I want to use the time I have with them to the full. God is so good to me. He has drawn our family closer together through the transitions. Although it might be hard to give my kids some independence, I know that God is always with them.  They are never alone. He is watching over them when they are with me and when we are apart.

One big September project that I tackled this month was purging the playroom. I went through and tossed all the happy meal toys. I got rid of anything cheap, broken, the party favor type items. I also boxed up some toys that they boys have outgrown. I hide the box of toys for a few months to see if anything is noticed and missed. When nothing is said then I donate the toys. September is a good time to do this purge since the boys’ birthdays are right around the corner. Out with the old and in with the new. If we expect more to come into the house then we need to make space by sending some out. This process is always extremely gratifying. So far no items have been noted as missing. I should be in the clear since it’s been a week now since the purge happened.

As you can see, I’m just tying to roll with it – whatever the day hands me. Adjusting to change is not easy for my personality type. Graham and I are struggling the most with the new schedule. I’m not three though so I can’t vent my emotions and fears through tantrums. I won’t lie – I’ve shed my fair share of tears through this process. My prayer life has deepened as I’ve called out to God to calm my heart, remove my anxiety and keep my boys safe. I apologize for sounding like a broken record . I’m just over here waiting for things to feel normal again. And I do realize that “normal” probably isn’t the best word. I’m waiting to feel settled and in routine. I don’t know when that will happen so until then I’m just figuring it out as I go.

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Jeremy took Owen along hunting for part of Saturday. I love sending my boys out into nature with their dad!

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Owen brought a bike light home from hunting. Here I am snuggling with my boys after nap time and the bike light is featured because they think it’s awesome. 

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Sunday evening we did a game and movie night with boys. Jeremy was home from hunting so we wanted to make the most of our family evening together. 

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Monday was staff retreat, picture day for Owen and the first time Owen rode the bus. Owen’s coat got forgotten at home. Plans were altered to go it it, we were late, no breakfast was had so Jeremy and I ate kid snacks in the van on the way to staff retreat as our breakfast. It was a zany day, but we kept smiling through it all. 

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Our staff retreat tagalong. Graham packed his own toy bag to bring. Included were dinosaurs, trains, magnets, play food, Hot Wheels cars and his snuggly blanket. 

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Here comes the bus! 

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Our bus rider made it home! 

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First day of homework packets. 

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Graham wanted to do homework at the same time as Owen. And don’t mind the crazy hair…

 

One week down. How many more to go? September 14, 2019

Filed under: Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 5:06 pm

We survived our first week of school. The school schedule is no joke. The years that I have dreaded filled with back and forth to school, sitting in pick up lines and daily having to be out of the house have arrived. I knew the boys were going to be tired after a week of the new routine, but I was in no way prepared for how exhausted I was going to be as well.

Owen is impressing me every day with his reading books that he brings home and the fact that he learned how to dribble a ball on the playground. He tells me recess is his favorite time of the day. He already has friends. Each day I get to hear that he used glue or paint or special markers. He is enjoying school a lot and done surprising well with full days of activity.

Graham on the other hand is not pleased with school. He was crying on Thursday night just knowing he had to go back on Tuesday. Oh my. He is feeling his feelings quite strongly right now. Everything is bit off kilter right now and Graham’s behavior is a sure sign that we haven’t found our new normal yet. We are all building new skills and muscles through this transition. Only time will help settle us.

I’ve kept this weekend purposefully quiet again. Jeremy has been gone hunting. I’ve been home with the boys allowing them to play and rest. We need home base right now. Part of this is my own need. Home centers me. After being all over the place this summer, I will say that I miss adventures. I miss fun family days. Elk season ends on Thursday and I’m looking forward to having my husband back. Maybe by the time Jeremy is out of the woods, we’ll have built our energy back up so we can actually have a family adventure. I sure hope so. I feel like I’m missing all my boys right now – Owen at elementary school, Graham at preschool, Jeremy out hunting.

Nothing about our school pick up and drop off plan has happened as we expected. Instead of dropping Owen off in his classroom, Jeremy has been dropping him off on the playground. Jeremy would be late to work and Graham would be late to preschool if Owen was walked in everyday. Owen is supervised on the playground and has friends to play with. It’s not a hardship on him. It’s just different then we expected. The buses have consistently beat us home from school everyday so we have turned in the paperwork to have Owen ride the bus home. Part of my great frustration with our new routine is that the bus depot hasn’t confirmed when Owen can start riding the bus. We keep waiting for a call that hasn’t happened. Even when Jeremy called them yesterday to check on our status, they couldn’t give us an answer. I’m holding my breath trying to adapt to a schedule that is about to change soon. Once we work out the kinks and get Owen to the bus home, I’ll hopefully be able to settle. School pick-up has definitely not worked for us.

On a positive note, we kicked off MOPS & MOMSnext on Monday and almost every seat in the room was full. The room was bursting with energy. It was a very good night. I hope the momentum of our first meeting carries through this new year with lots of excitement and growth. I truly believe this could be the best year of MOPS & MOMSnext yet.

God is good. He has been my rock as I have felt unsteady this month. When life is tough, I turn to my faith as my foundation. I guess the bonus of a difficult transition is that I’ve been journaling daily and I’ve been very diligent in my quiet time with the Lord. God has been my source of strength during this exhausting new season. I know he is helping me to persevere and he is pushing me forward. Onward to better day! I believe it!

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Feeling a bit like a kid on the first day of school for our MOPS & MOMSnext kick off! 

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I love seeing a room full of ladies that are hoping to connect and build friendships!

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The sunset on Tuesday was simply beautiful and needed to be documented.

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When you are too tired to scoop cookies on a sheet, I recommend cookie bars. Way less work and just as tasty! 

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Graham has taken over collecting eggs while Owen is at school. 

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TGIF – happy to be home playing video games! 

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Saturday morning craft time

 

A Preschooler & A Kindergartener September 7, 2019

Filed under: Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 1:49 pm

The much anticipated first days of school have come and gone for my boys. True to life, the week turned out differently than expected. Graham came down with a 12 hour tummy bug and missed his first day of school. No chance at perfect attendance. I’m sure that isn’t a thing in preschool anyway!

Despite the being a day late, Graham started preschool on Wednesday with much success! Graham has shared all kinds of information about his time and his feelings about the school. I was nervous that my little homebody wasn’t going to be a good fit for preschool, but it seems he jumped in just fine. The only thing I can tell is a change in his behavior at home this week. There have been a lot of changes and strong emotions as we transition to a new fall schedule. Even though I’ve tried to remain calm around the boys, I’m sure they sensed the undercurrent of my emotions. Graham is a bit of a wild child at the moment. I have to remind myself that he is adapting to change, just like me. He is being pushed to try new things and learn new skills. It will take it’s toll until the muscles gain strength and a new normal settles upon our family. This same truth applies to all of us.

I’m grateful that Graham’s start to preschool has gone so well. I feel a smidge guilty that I haven’t been quite as worked up about him going to preschool as I have been for Owen starting kindergarten. Graham has the blessing of being the second child. Owen did two years of preschool at BKLC so I know what to expect in this environment. Graham goes to preschool in the same building as my husband and many other family members. He is in a safe environment where he is learning and trusted family members are just down the hall. It gives my heart peace. I wonder if someday I’ll have to apologize to Graham for never worrying about him quite as much as I worried about Owen. Even when it comes to elementary school, Graham will be a part of Owen’s drop off and pick up process for years before he is a student. By the time Graham is school aged, he’ll be familiar with the school and we’ll be familiar with the procedures.

Owen and I had a few mornings together while Graham was at preschool. The first day we ran an errand and got Starbucks. I wanted to do something special to fill up his love tank before heading into a new environment. On Thursday, we had our one-on-one conference with Owen’s teacher. She had us download an app where we could see pictures she posts of the class throughout the day. We talked about homework and expectations. I signed up to be her Tuesday morning volunteer starting in October. It was a good a sit down. I left with lots of paperwork to read and school picture forms to fill out and Scholastic book flyers to flip through. It’s a whole new world we’re entering.

Friday was the first official day of kindergarten. I’m so glad we only had one full day before the weekend. A full week of this routine is going to be intense! Owen went into his classroom just fine because his teacher helped whisk him in quickly before emotions could take over. I’m grateful that Jeremy was with me. He helped keep my emotions in check. Graham, Jeremy and I had breakfast out together after the drop off. I have a feeling that Fridays will become our run errands with Graham day. Saturdays will have to become more intentionally our family days. Throughout the school day, we saw pictures of Owen doing well and it put our minds at ease. The only downside of the first day was having to wake up Graham from his nap to get to school for pick up and then waiting for a half hour in the pick up line. Right now the buses are running behind, but in theory they should straighten out and with the routes changing this year, the bus now should drop off at our house at 3:32pm. This is about the same time that I was planning on being home with Owen anyway. I might just let the bus bring him home which would allow Graham a longer nap and save me the hassle of sitting in a sea of cars at the school. I will keep doing pick up until we see that the buses are running on schedule.

Overall, we survived the first week of school with flying colors. Jeremy is out in the woods today chasing down elk. The boys and I are having a home day. For me that means chores and finishing a required read for staff retreat. For the boys that means playing trains and watching cartoons. We’ve been living off of leftover pizza from our celebration meal last night. After sending my boys out in the world this week, it feels good to gather them close and have them home today. I just finished reading the 5 Love Languages of Children a week ago and it’s reminded me just how important each love language is in filling up a child’s love tank. I’ve tried to be generous with my words, hugs and kisses this last week in preparation for all the change. I’ve tried to do special things to show my love in tangible ways. Even though our days of being home together 24/7 have ended, I want my kids to know they have a foundation of love built with their parents. Even though they drive me nuts at times, I’m so thankful that God entrusted these boys to me. They are a blessing!

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Graham’s First Day of Preschool at BKLC.

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I love that Graham listed Owen as his best friend!

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Walking into school

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Playing Trains

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Heading to his teacher conference

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First Day of School at Lintott Elementary

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Dropping Owen off on the first day. His teacher told him Lamby could come too!

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I’ve been journaling and reading Scripture this week to calm my heart. This verse is now my lock screen on my phone. God gives strength and peace. Two things I need so much right now!