Amy Scott's Thoughts

Sharing the thoughts that bounce around in my brain!

Thanksgiving and More November 27, 2015

Filed under: Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 5:03 pm

This last week has been a full one. Some ups and downs. Last weekend, Jeremy was able to get the Christmas lights up on our house and I was able to start our Christmas gift wrapping. I love wrapping Christmas presents. It makes me so happy. It’s seriously one of my favorite things to do.

Monday and Tuesday, Jeremy was out of town on a golf trip with his brothers and dad. This was my first overnight alone with two kiddos. I survived fairly well. It helped that I filled the days with lots of activity and Owen took really good naps both days. Praise Jesus! On Monday, I had two friends visit. One came over to chat in the morning and one came over that evening for dinner. It helped me knowing that I would have adult company throughout the day. On Tuesday, my mom took the boys and I to run errands. It was nice to get out of the house and get some shopping done.

I was so excited to have my hubby home. Sadly, he arrived home with a very high fever and was sick all of Wednesday and Thursday. This meant our Thanksgiving plans changed. Jeremy stayed home from Thanksgiving this year. I was originally planning on staying home with him, but he reminded me that none of my extended family had met Graham yet. My parents offered to drive me and the boys up to my Grandma’s house. It was very kind of them. It was weird to spend the day without Jeremy, but at the same time I think it was good I got the kids out of the house so Jeremy could actually rest. Jeremy helped me assemble my Thanksgiving favorites to take with me to my Grandma’s house. He also made himself some green bean casserole and stuffing. I felt good knowing he still got to eat his favorite Thanksgiving fixings.

Jeremy’s fever finally broke last night. We’ve had a slow paced day around the house today. We started to decorate the house for Christmas. Hopefully in the next week or so we can get our Christmas tree up and complete the Christmas cheer!

The boys have had some major milestones this week as well. Graham had a weight check on Wednesday and he was weighing in at 9lbs. 12 oz. He has put on almost three pounds since birth. He was literally busting out of all his newborn clothes. I packed up all the newborn clothes this morning and he is now wearing size 3 month. He also upgraded to size 1 diapers this week. Graham is my little chunk! Sadly, he hasn’t improved a ton in the spit up department, but I am aware that it could take a few weeks to see the results of my diet change. I pray for the sake of Graham (and my washing machine) that things will improve soon.

Owen hit a milestone that we weren’t expecting. Yesterday, he was saying “poop” over and over again, but he wasn’t poopy. Jeremy thought maybe he was telling us he needed to poop. Owen has started mentioning when he pees and he actually had one dry night this week. We figured these were all signs that he might want to start potty training so we pulled down the potty from the closet. The first experience was just hanging out on the chair. Nothing happened but we still rewarded him for trying. Today he peed on the potty for the first time! I wasn’t planning to start this process yet, but I guess it’s happening. Pray for me!

And there you have it! Graham is starting to stir and dinner in on the stove. I better wrap things up! See you all in about a week.

IMG_9438

Starting my Christmas wrapping!


IMG_9439

Loving the lights! Owen says we have a llama in the front yard.


IMG_9461

The chilly golfers


IMG_9475

Out to eat at one of the few places I can go – Chipotle!


IMG_9478

Staring Grandma down! Graham is so good at eye contact and smiling now! He gave GG (my grandma) the best faces at Thanksgiving!


IMG_9527

A relaxed start to Thanksgiving day! We had a lot of fun watching the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. Owen loved the singing, dancing and Thomas balloon.


IMG_9539

My little turkey! I had hopes of getting a whole family photo on Thanksgiving, but then Jeremy got sick. Then I thought I would get one with my boys, but Owen wasn’t interested. In the end, it was just me and Graham.


IMG_9552

Auntie, Grandma and Graham

 

Dairy/Soy Free – One Day Done November 21, 2015

Filed under: Cooking Experiments,Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 3:47 pm

When I wrote Graham’s one month blog, I was still reeling from the news that I would have to eat a dairy/soy free diet the entire time I breastfed him. I have known people who have had to do this, but it’s one of those things that you assume would never happen to you. I guess I wasn’t so lucky. I spent the afternoon going through our pantry and fridge to find out what in our house I could eat. Each item I discovered that was dairy/soy free was a victory. However, there are lots of things that I am going to have to say good-bye to. It’s hard to find items that are both soy and dairy free. It seems like soy is in everything.

Thursday evening, my hubby and I braved the stores with our kiddos to find some new options for our family. I’m extremely blessed to have a husband who tackled this change head on. I would have sat and wallowed and starved thinking that I can now eat nothing in the whole world. Jeremy got me into the stores and was by my side through all the label checking. I spent a good part of my afternoon/drive up to Olympia researching substitutes for butter, milk and favorite foods. I am happy to say that after a few days of looking, I have found a substitute or alternative to most thing.

Owen will continue to eat his regular diet. There is no way that I’m cutting milk and cheese and crackers from his existence. That would be cruel. I also don’t expect Jeremy to follow this diet fully. We have a lot of food that has dairy and soy in it and we need to eat that up. It’s now Jeremy’s job to make those foods disappear.

I have now tried almond milk for the first time in my life. I cooked with coconut oil for the first time too. I never saw myself using these products, but here I am. It seems that making things at home won’t be the challenge. My big issue now will be going out to eat – at a restaurant or anywhere else. If I don’t make it then it will be hard to tell if it truly dairy and soy free. I did some research and I have a few options for eating out, but it’s small the number of things that I can now order. For Thanksgiving and Christmas, most of the meals are potluck style and I won’t be able to know what used to make most dishes. Social eating is going to be tricky. I will probably be bringing my own food with me where ever I go. Not ideal. I also feel bad that we stocked up our freezer with meals before Graham was born. The thought was make life easy with a new baby. Those meals all contain dairy and soy.

Yes, there are some downsides to this. It’s going to make life complicated. However, I have a feeling it will get me into my kitchen more and using real foods. This is a positive thing. My attitude is slowly improving as I process things and see that there are alternatives. I made pumpkin muffins yesterday to prove to myself that I can still bake and enjoy seasonal treats. I have had lots of friends and family show me support. I have a couple friends who have been through this same thing and they have given me tons of advice and suggestions on what products to buy and where to find things. In fact, I have coconut milk ice cream in my fridge right now. Jeremy will be out of town for a couple days next week and he told me to splurge and get some just in case I need it for emotional support. This new diet won’t be the cheapest, but at least I have options. I am thankful for the love that I’ve been shown as I wrap my head around this big life change. I’ll keep you posted as things continue. It’s all still new and I’m learning daily. I’m sure I’ll have a lot more to say about this diet as the days tick on.

As a random side note, I am glad that I had one month of bad eating before we discovered that Graham had this intolerance. I was able to eat lots of cheese pizza, milk chocolate and even got some cheesecake before I was told to cut these foods from my diet. I got one month of comfort food and all the bad things I love. I look back on the last month and think fondly of all the foods that I got to eat. I am glad I ate them. I appreciate them now even more. Someday I will eat them again. I might just have to have a cheese and chocolate party when Graham can officially have dairy/soy again. I think there should be banners, streamers and party hats involved.

IMG_9422

First full day of no dairy/soy. Breakfast – Honey Nut Cheerios with almond milk. Lunch – Chicken tortilla soup with chips. Dinner – pasta and sausage. Snacks – Red Vines, apple and a fruit snack. Dessert – pumpkin muffin. All yummy and gave me hope that I can do this!

 

Graham: One month November 19, 2015

Filed under: Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 4:02 pm
IMG_9400

One month old today!

This is going to be a doozy of a blog. Oh my. Graham is one month old today. My world has been turned upside down a time or two, but I am still standing. The lack of sleep has been hard. Graham has had a few longer stretches at night (4-6 hours), but mostly he is up about every two hours. He developed a head cold at 3 weeks that really had a negative effect on his sleep. It was hard for me to see this little guy get a cold at such a young age. When Owen was an infant, I could keep germy kids away from him. Sadly, Owen passed a cold on Graham. There was no protecting from big brother.

For the most part, Graham has been super chill. He seems to handle things better than Owen did. He’s also been a really good eater. Owen and I needed some time to figure out the whole breastfeeding thing, but Graham got the concept right away. However, we’ve had some challenges arise recently that I never saw coming.

A couple weeks ago, I noticed that Graham was really spitting up a lot. Way more than Owen ever did. We were in a cycle of Graham spitting up, making a huge mess, me cleaning up the mess, Graham being hungry because he lost his meal and then me having to feed him again. It’s a cycle that leaves me feeding Graham a great deal of the time that he is awake. He also has some gross diapers that I assumed were related to his cold and nasal drainage. After a couple weeks with this spit up problem, we went to the doctor today to figure things out. Graham was diagnosed with a milk/soy intolerance.  Most kids out grow this, but for the entire time that I breastfeed, I will have to cut dairy and soy out of my diet. Let’s be honest, I eat a lot of processed foods. I eat junk. I have never really cared about what I ate. I live off of cheese pizza and milk chocolate. The fact that my whole diet has to change has completely rocked my world and left me reeling.

Being so tired has been hard on me. Keeping up with Owen and Graham on little sleep has been rough. Food has been a source of comfort and a way of rewarding myself for surviving. As I head into the holidays, I realize that I will not be able to eat most of the meals and goodies that I will be surrounded by. I’m not even sure I have the right amount of words to describe how not thrilled I am. I want my son to be healthy and happy. I know this isn’t about me and I know it’s only for a season, not forever. But at the same time, I am very much still in the pity party camp. I am bummed and frustrated and angry and scared and I just want to cry.

I haven’t had a good meltdown yet about anything. I keep thinking I will snap soon and dissolve into a puddle of tears. I’m not sure if I am stronger than I expected or if I’m not really letting myself give way to the emotions that are building in my life. I feel like I need to have a good cry and yet for some reason I haven’t… I told Jeremy just last night that I am waiting to hit rock bottom. I feel like I keep falling deeper and I would love to hit the bottom so I could start working my way back up. This diet change might be rock bottom, but I’m not sure. I still feel like I’m falling.

IMG_9377

Graham’s first Wednesday night at church! It was great to be back in the classroom with my girls. I missed them so much! Graham did an awesome job hanging with us.

This update really should be about Graham, though, not my sadness. Graham is growing like crazy. He has gained over a pound in the last week. He now weighs 8lbs 15oz. In his first month of life he has gained over two pounds total. Even with the tummy problems, all the eating is paying off. Maybe this kid will be my chunky kid since Owen never was.

One month. Graham is a sweet addition to our family. Even though the crazy factor in our house has gone up, I wouldn’t change anything. I am bummed about this diet transition, but Graham is worth it. This sweet boy deserves to have food that won’t upset his insides. I am excited once we get a handle on his diet how he will change and grow. I’m hoping he will be happier and go back to the more chill baby he started out as. It’s hard to be chill when your food doesn’t agree with you. We will make this work. I love this little boy so much and I am blessed to be his mommy.

 

 

Life Beyond the Wall November 18, 2015

Filed under: Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 2:31 pm

I hit the wall. I’m not sure when I did, but I know for a fact that I did. I have hit the wall and I am now on the other side. And life on the other side is a haze. Translation – I AM SO STINKING TIRED!!! Okay, I knew that life with a newborn meant crazy sleep, but man, I am exhausted. And yet, each day I get up and keep going. There is no way to stop. Despite hitting the wall, I must keep moving forward, onward. Moving actually helps me from just plain falling over. Okay, this paragraph might be my sleepy, dramatic side talking.

I would love to catch you up on the last week, but I have only a few brain cells to spare and Graham is starting to wake up, so I’ll be quick. On Friday, the boys and I joined Jeremy in Seattle for a conference commitment he had there. It was a crazy outing, but it was so much fun and totally better than staying home by myself with the boys waiting for Jeremy to make it through Friday rush hour traffic. Instead of sitting in traffic, we started our Christmas shopping – in real stores! That in itself is a Christmas miracle. I thought all my presents would be purchased on Amazon this year.

On Monday, Graham was officially 4 weeks old and tomorrow he will be officially a month old. I have many updates I could give on Graham and how he is doing, but I am going to save them for his one month post. Let’s just say this kid eats a lot and spits up a lot. I live my life nursing him and cleaning up the mess that follows. Seriously, gross. I am so over spit up. Anyway, more on that later.

I’ve been doing my best, trying to stay on top of life. This means making it to church and to MOPS. We celebrated my nephew’s second birthday this last weekend and we visited with out of town family last night. Even though I am exhausted, I keep making it out of the house. I might have a struggle putting together complete sentences, but I am there and that has to count for something, right? I hope so.

Our house is crazy these days. Owen loves to “throw” his toys everywhere. He especially loves the sound they make when he throws them on the hard floor. Toby continues to bark at anything outside the window – real or imagined. Graham sadly hasn’t been as chill as he once was and more crying has happened over the last week or so. If you catch things at the right moment you might think we live in a nut house.  For the most part, I am trying to compartmentalize and not let the chaos get to me. We live here. Our house is well used and well loved. The crazy is a sign of life lived and it’s a good life. Just a loud one at times.

I’m not going to lie. Life is not easy. Not every moment is fun. I am still holding to the opinion that this whole family of four thing isn’t as bad as I assumed it would be, but at the same time, I am really feeling it – the lack of sleep and the exhaustion that comes from keeping up with a toddler and an infant. I know that not everyday will be sunshine and rainbows, but I am clinging to the fact that I am not alone. Parenting continues to reveal my great need for God. He is my anchor when I feel like I am slipping away. He holds me steady even in a sea of chaos. I am loved. I am okay. I am tired, but I will make it.

There you go. Once again, a not so short, but totally real update on my life.

The end.

IMG_9240

Our day out and about in Seattle on Friday – Owen especially enjoyed the construction site across the street from the conference and the Thomas section of Toys’R’Us

IMG_9255

Happy 2nd Birthday, Nolan!

IMG_9250

As snug as a bug in a rug

IMG_9340

Snuggling with the baby and the dog while the toddler sleeps

IMG_9365

Tired baby, tired mama

IMG_9362

Patiently waiting for fresh clothes after another good spit up session

 

Another Week November 11, 2015

Filed under: Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 7:30 pm

Three weeks! We’ve made it three weeks. Each week feels like a victory to me. I’m keeping two kids alive! Go me! I guess I thought the world was going to end when I had two kids. It’s been an easier transition than expected, but let me say, I really do miss sleep. I don’t think I will ever love living on a newborn sleep schedule. Apart from the lack of sleep, I seem to wake up every day and hit the ground running. Keeping up with Owen and Graham (and even Toby), makes for busy days. I love these boys and I am glad that I get to be home with them. I keep thinking through what I want to say in this update. I’ve already mentioned the lack of sleep. Let’s just hit the main highlights. Owen got a head cold and gave it to Graham. We had to take Graham into the doctor’s office today. Unfortunately, Graham has a head full of snot that needs to be suctioned out, but luckily it’s not in his chest and overall he is doing good. This cold has made him fussier than usual and it has made sleeping at night a challenge for him (and consequently, Jeremy and I). The one bonus of this appointment is that we found out Graham weighs 7lbs. 14oz. which is way more than Jeremy and I assumed. He is putting on more than an ounce of weight a day. His appetite is paying off and that means I can soon put him into a baby carrier! Yay for being almost 8lbs!

More highlights from his last week, we helped Nana celebrate her birthday. Owen loves to blow out birthday candles. It was nice to hang out with Jeremy’s parents. They got to snuggle with Graham and Owen got to play with two of his favorite people. On Friday, my parent’s brought us dinner and again, Owen had a blast playing with his grandparents. Especially chasing Grandpa around the house. We are blessed to have such amazing parents and to have them live close by. I love that our boys are growing up with their influence in their lives. I appreciate them more than words can say.

This week we had a play date with my friend, Maggie and her kiddos. Maggie’s son, Luke, and Graham are only a month apart. My hope is that they will be good buddies in the future. It was also a lot of fun to watch Owen and Maggie’s daughter, Summer, playing together. I love anytime that I get to spend with Maggie. It was special to introduce her to Graham. I am excited for our lunch date next month. It will be just us and our little boys. I can’t wait for more time with her as we navigate the waters of two kids. It’s been a blessing to have her be in the same season of life and parenting. It’s nice to know that someone understand what you are going through when it comes to sleepless nights, fussy babies and fountain diapers!

Saturday, Jeremy attempted to give Owen his first haircut at home. Owen has had some serious meltdowns the last few times we’ve taken him to get his haircut. Jeremy decide that he was going to do it himself with the clippers I use for Jeremy’s haircut. We started off by giving Jeremy a haircut. We wanted Owen to see how it worked and that it was no big deal. Initially, Owen wanted to be like Daddy and have his haircut. He denied wearing the cape and once the hair started falling, he changed his mind and got super wiggly. Eventually, Owen ended up getting his haircut on my lap. My sweatshirt might forever be itchy thanks to the hair clippings that I got all over me. Maybe I’ll wear the cape next time if Owen ends up on my lap again.  Jeremy did a decent job. It will be a bit of a learning process, but overall, Jeremy was quite successful and Owen no longer looks like a woolly mammoth. I would say that is a win!

Those are a few of the more major moments from this week. In a very unlike me fashion, I will admit that they are not in chronological order! My brain seems to be bouncing a bit all over the place right now. Oh, I’ve also gotten more red cups since the last time I blogged. On Monday, I got a red cup on way to up to hang out with Maggie. As crazy has this sounds, I ordered a peppermint hot chocolate and they forgot the chocolate! I didn’t end up finishing that drink since peppermint milk isn’t really my thing. I got a red cup last night with my sister and it was tasty and my order was correct! It was fun to go into the store now that it’s all decorated for the holidays. After Graham’s doctor appointment today, Jeremy and I got red cups as well. I just realized that I am on a three day streak of red cups. I love red cup season!

Okay, now really, that is it. Not much more to say in this three week update. Just like last week, Graham and I are home while Jeremy and Owen are at church. We are going to repeat the game plan from last Wednesday and try to wake up Graham with a bath. This kid stinks! I forgot how much laundry the spit up phase makes and how gross babies can smell! Graham is in serious need of a good scrubbing and a clean outfit!

Signing off until next week.

Hanging with my boys at home

Hanging with my boys at home

Snuggles with Daddy

Snuggles with Daddy

The big haircut

The big haircut

Helping Nana blow out the candles

Helping Nana blow out the candles

Officially three weeks old

Officially three weeks old

These boy are going to be buddies! I know it!

These boy are going to be buddies! I know it!

A wonderful time with Maggie May and her kiddos

A wonderful time with Maggie May and her kiddos

A red cup with April! A holiday tradition!

A red cup with April! A holiday tradition!

Waiting to see the doctor today

Waiting to see the doctor today

 

Making It November 4, 2015

Filed under: Simply Me — Amy Scott @ 8:01 pm

Update time! Here we are another week into this family of four thing. It seems like a lot has happened in just one week. Last Wednesday Graham had another doctor’s appointment. This one was for his circumcision and a slightly early two week well check. Graham handled his “procedure” like a champ. He barely cried at all and the whole thing went a lot better that I remember Owen’s appointment going. However, Graham seems to be more chill than Owen. Also, I knew what to expect. It didn’t have the same trauma factor as it did with Owen. Graham was 9 days old at the time and weighed in 6lbs. 11oz. I’m guessing that he reached his birth weight by Monday (his official two week mark). While I love having a little guy, I’m looking forward to him hitting 8lbs. Right now all the baby carriers I have are too big for him. I would love to have him in the carrier so he gets the sensation of being held with me being able to have my hands free.

Thursday was my first day at home with both kiddos. Owen slept in that morning which was nice because Graham was asleep for the morning by the time Owen joined us. My mom came over mid-morning and we had a very calm time. Then my mom left and the next 20 minutes turned into chaos. Graham had a fountain diaper, Owen got put into time out for putting the dog’s food into his water and Toby peed on the floor. It was a brief period of chaos and I was glad once it passed. Jeremy came home for lunch and it was nice to see him for a short period of time. Our afternoon went fairly well. Owen went down for a nap and of course, Graham woke up. They seem to be good at coordinating this. Owen goes down for a nap and Graham decides he is hungry… Graham ends up eating a good portion of Owen’s nap time. The only other drama of Thursday was I shut Owen’s finger in the pantry door. It wasn’t even fully shut in the door. More like briefly pinched, but of course, there was a meltdown. I took him to run his finger under cold water and he got distracted by the water. This helped me know that I didn’t break his finger and that he was fine. We survived day one! Now a million more to tackle!

Friday, we had to head back to the hospital. Graham failed his hearing test in his left ear twice while we were in the hospital, so we had to go back for a follow up. Luckily, Graham passed his test on Friday and the appointment went quickly. In fact, Graham slept through the whole thing. We met up with Owen and Grandma and took off to my dad’s office so Grandpa could introduce Graham to his office peeps. Owen enjoyed a yummy bag of popcorn (awesome lunch choice) and Grandpa took him to play in a dump truck. Watching Owen in the dump truck was like watching a kid in heaven! I’m surprise we were able to get him out of the warehouse without a meltdown. I’m pretty sure he was bribed with chocolate… After all that excitement, both kiddos crashed for the car ride home. Later that evening, we had a visit from Jeremy’s brother, sister-in-law and their boys. They brought dinner and Owen got to play with one his favorite people on the planet, his cousin, Nolan. It was a great day for Owen. First a dump truck experience and then a play date with Nolan! Can’t beat that!

Saturday was the big day – Halloween aka Fall Fest. Jeremy was gone for most of the afternoon/evening. Owen joined him at church for the big event. Grandma & Grandpa escorted Owen around Fall Fest. Since I couldn’t put Graham into a baby carrier, I decided to stay home instead of navigate a stroller through the crowds. My sister came up to spend the evening with us and we watched The Lego Movie. I know, we are crazy ladies. We know how to party.

Sunday was my first experience getting the kids out of the house by myself. Thanks to daylight savings, Owen was up early. This gave me plenty of time to get us out the door. I was actually early and got a chance to drive by Starbucks and get my first (and so far only) red cup. Usually I like to celebrate Red Cup Day by going into the store and sitting for a while with family and friends. This year it was a quick drive thru experience, but it was still a celebration since I was able to get out the house with a two year old and almost two week old completely on my own and early. That was a victory and it was honored with a red cup. Our first Sunday at church went well. Jeremy helped me out by checking Owen into the nursery and my sister helped me make it into service. After service, I introduced Graham to many people as I tried to walk through the foyer and back to Jeremy’s office. The one thing that I forgot about was how you can’t go under the radar with a baby. Everyone talks to you. At church I expected to be mobbed, but even out and about complete strangers will talk to you because you have a baby. It’s very sweet, but it can overwhelm my introverted self.

After our home run on Sunday, my outing to MOPS yesterday was a bit of a letdown. It wasn’t a bad outing. I was still on time and able to get everything I needed done for the meeting. Graham fussed throughout the meeting. He was hungry and gassy and right the very end of the meeting he pooped which explains the fussing. He also spit up on me and himself really good. It was your average outing with a newborn, but not fantastic. Just average. I’m back to being spit up on and trying to keep a newborn quiet in adult settings. Now that I’m a table leader, I feel guilty about leaving MOPS early, but it might happen. Especially with guest speakers, a crying newborn can be a bit distracting.

Okay, this updated turned out a whole lot longer than I expected! Like I said, lots have happened in the last week. Now it’s time to give Graham a spit shine. We have hit the spit up phase, so Graham stinks, his clothes stink, his blankets stink and I honestly probably stink too. Time to clean him up and get him smelling like baby shampoo again!

Overall, I am happy to report that we are making it! In fact, things are going pretty well! Yay!

Owen wanted to sit on my lap and snuggle! This was Thursday - good to know that he still loved me even after the pinched finger!

Owen wanted to sit on my lap and snuggle! This was Thursday – good to know that he still loved me even after the pinched finger!


Visiting Grandpa's office

Visiting Grandpa’s office


Family time

Family time


Little Pumpkin

Little Pumpkin


Owen in his Ligthening McQueen outfit for Fall Fest. He wasn't interested in having his picture taken or keeping his hat on.

Owen in his Ligthening McQueen outfit for Fall Fest. He wasn’t interested in having his picture taken or keeping his hat on.


Auntie and Graham

Auntie and Graham


Happy Red Cup Day!

Happy Red Cup Day!


Wide awake

Wide awake


Not so wide awake

Not so wide awake